(Nothing Akechi's telling him is news, and yet, it explains plenty about his behavior when Ren takes a deeper look at it. His fright regarding intimacy, a fear that he might lose what he allowed himself to have. How sometimes, Akechi bites without meaning to. The endless discussions of why Ren shouldn't be with him. His never-ending quest for revenge, until it ended.
All products of someone loving, who wanted nothing but to love and be loved in return, and to tear apart those who denied him that... And yet, doesn't want to lose something so dear.
[He sighs through his nose with some relief and allows himself to rest more fully back against Ren's chest, slouching somewhat to get comfortable. When Ren's finished eating, they'll have to resume the day as usual, but until then, he can bask in the other boy's warmth, and yes, presence, a little longer.
Ren deserves better, but who the fuck is he to sit here and bemoan that when he can try to actively be someone who deserves Ren? An unending task, to be sure, because he refuses to change for Ren's sake, but... still. He can put in the effort. Ren deserves that much.
He pops the bit of bagel in his mouth almost as an afterthought, and makes the mistake of biting directly into one of the chopped-up jalapeños. He jolts bolt-upright with a snarl and covers his mouth. It's spicy! (it's really not)]
(Ren's nearly melting from all this attention, the affection that Ren feels Akechi is increasing in both quality and quantity, and he truly couldn't be happier. Akechi is sinking against his chest, and Ren almost finds himself choosing between love and food...
Until Akechi nearly sticks to the ceiling like a surprised, panicked cat.)
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Date: 2021-11-08 10:24 pm (UTC)All products of someone loving, who wanted nothing but to love and be loved in return, and to tear apart those who denied him that... And yet, doesn't want to lose something so dear.
Ren beams, taking the boy's hand.)
I know. Never thought you did.
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Date: 2021-11-08 10:43 pm (UTC)[He sighs through his nose with some relief and allows himself to rest more fully back against Ren's chest, slouching somewhat to get comfortable. When Ren's finished eating, they'll have to resume the day as usual, but until then, he can bask in the other boy's warmth, and yes, presence, a little longer.
Ren deserves better, but who the fuck is he to sit here and bemoan that when he can try to actively be someone who deserves Ren? An unending task, to be sure, because he refuses to change for Ren's sake, but... still. He can put in the effort. Ren deserves that much.
He pops the bit of bagel in his mouth almost as an afterthought, and makes the mistake of biting directly into one of the chopped-up jalapeños. He jolts bolt-upright with a snarl and covers his mouth. It's spicy! (it's really not)]
Fuck!
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Date: 2021-11-08 10:55 pm (UTC)Until Akechi nearly sticks to the ceiling like a surprised, panicked cat.)
Milk?!